Things seem dismal and grey, especially if you live in Minnesota, this time of year.
The house seems a little chilly, but I could turn up the thermostat.
Sometimes we can do something about our circumstances, but just choose not to.
I brush my teeth without turning on the light….what’s the point?
I save what little bit I can, whenever I can.
I am not sure I have always been that way, or have become that way as I have been getting older. Not sure what happened first and why I choose the things I do.
Too much listening to political news and my heart grows fainter, my future seems uncertain and I am anxious for the outcome. It can be so depressing. How much longer before we know the verdict? Is there anyone left that has courage anymore?
I am learning patience and at least learning ways to cope. I guess, that is a good thing that could only have come because of my own situation. It would have been easier if all things would have been honestly conducted.
I think about my mood and take inventory of what I am doing. I turn on the lights and instantly, my vision is brighter and so are my spirits….even if, just a little bit. Why do I let myself be in situations that are dull and dismal and grey sometimes? I have it in my power to be happy in the smallest ways.
I can’t control the outside world but can bring myself a little peace and joy in small ways within my own space I live in. I turn on the Christmas tunes I uploaded to my phone and connect to my speaker. I light my tiny tea lights surrounding my nativity scene.
I look in the mirror in the morning and think of those I miss and my messy spare room I have yet to have time to organize. I think….”This is the day the LORD has made. I WILL REJOICE and be GLAD in it.” Keep my eyes on Jesus.
I WILL REJOICE…..it is just a decision I make. I smile very largely in the mirror as if posing for a live audience. I already feel better. I work from home and rarely go out, but today I will choose to apply makeup. I will even remember the lipstick this time. I will add a splash of body spray even though I don’t own a single bottle of expensive perfume……and BE GLAD IN IT!
I walk to my closet and decide to dress pretty today. Just because. For no special reason. I will add some jewelry to my outfit, which I seem to have plenty of. All just costume jewelry, of course…but that seems to be the most fun!
I am learning patience. I am learning to be quiet, understanding that we are all going through some sort of struggle, especially this year. Some have it harder. I at least, don’t have little ones to raise anymore, or a crabby, lazy husband to be married to.
I have a nice home and neighborhood and my future finances seem to be in order. I am not jobless, not childless, not homeless, not sick or handicapped or dependent on anyone.
If I can find something good in every day, in every person, in every situation, it is all that is needed. We are only promised today, this hour….this minute.
I am blessed I have Jesus in my life. What would Christmas be without him? Just things, just ideas, just sounds, just lights and visions of sugarplums dancing in our heads. Mindless things really.
Have you wondered about the child in a manger lately? There is something good in that.
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.